Merry Christmas, revisited

I was just interacting with one of Ashley and Adam's cousins, who has always been family to me, regardless of whether Maria is or not. It hurts a LOT to ask Alis if she saw the pictures of my kids shooting pistols with my stepfather. I am not, at this point in my life, a father at all. I just hope I have it in me to do something about it. My life is in poor damn shape right now, and I can't do a thing about a lot of the problems. I guess I'd better started with the things I do have some modicum of control over....