Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results....

Yup, that's one definition of "insanity", as defined by the recovery community, and I seem to keep on doing just that. I'm ok today, just sick of the same ol' same ol....

Superbowl Sunday

I really don't give a damn who wins the super bowl, can't even really tell ya who's playing. It hasn't been  a great day. I did something stupid yesterday, and let a woman who has hurt me badly in the past back in my life, for about 3 hours. 3 long, horrible hours. She wanted me to go to an AA meeting with her. I was reminded of the rampant hypocracy of those people. No, I don't know how to spell hypocracy, and it rather irritates me. I don't really know what else to say, besides I am continually disappointing myself with my decisions.

It's been a loooooong time....

Since I posted on here! Almost a whole year. And while a lot has changed, a lot has stayed just the same. And that's not a good thing. I am going to try and change my perspective on things. Yeah, yeah, I know, you've heard that one before. But dang it, I'm not getting any younger. Just better looking. Let's see....when last we saw our intrepid adventurer, I was a friggin' wreck....cut to 2012, and I'm still a mess, but I'm gonna change all that as rapidly as I possibly can. I got a very stern lecture from my Pastor last week, it said basically that I've been going to the church for a couple of years, but my lifestyle doesn't reflect that. And you know what? He's exactly right. So here's what I propose to do: (listen up Momma, this one's for you...) I'm going to start living my life like a real Christian. So, we'll see how this turns out....