Sunday Night

I can't believe it's November already. I was walking home from an NA meeting just now, thinking about the past year and everything I've lost. The fact that I spent my entire settlement is almost enough to put me over the edge. Every bill that I can't pay, the fact that I can't even register my truck, my Mom had to pay my rent, everything seems to remind me how foolish I have been. And that's really what's keeping me clean. So, I guess it wasn't all bad, as long as I learned from it. I always have done things all the way or not at all, I live a life of extremes. Now if only I could get to the extremely good part of it. I know it's there somewhere!