Rainy day in San Diego

Doesn't happen very often! But, it matches by attitude this morning. I'm not happy. J has been getting ready for her daughter's birthday party today. And that's great, but it's a constant reminder that I don't get to do the same for my children. That's selfish,I know, but that's how it is. I'm tired of never being happy. I'm very upset about how things are turning out. Nothing ever turns out in my favor. Never. I'm ready to leave, but can't. Why? Oh, because I'm still on probation. Just me. I have 41 more weeks of it. Hopefully, I can turn this into something positive, and be ready to do something with my life by the time I'm off probation. We'll see.....