Hosting out first sober BBQ

We just had our first BBQ since beginning sobriety, and it was a little weird. So much of my life has been spent high, I don't really know how to act sober. Sounds weird, I know, but I don't really know how to explain it. I read in an interview in a leading music magazine one time, with I think members of Jimmy Buffet's band, where one of the musicians stated that he went to rehab to "learn how not to drink". That's exactly how I feel these days. Drugs have been an integral part of my life for so long, I don't really have any adult memories of living without them. And I know things are supposed to get better, but damn if things are getting steadily worse. I went from having a nice house, a nice car, multiple vehicles, 160,000.00 in the bank to today, where if I don't come up with 700.00 by Tuesday, I'll be on the streets. Happy Birthday, dumbass. But, I'm not trying to complain, Oh, poor me! I realize that I put myself in this situation, it's just frustrating. And more than a little overwhelming.